so i have had a very interesting day today....actually it started late last night. my sister called as i was walking in the door at midnight. she had gone into our storage locker last night and found out that it had been broken into and that her bike had been stolen. i was livid!!! this is the second bike of ours that has been stolen from the basement within the last year. the part that really irritated me was that when sn's bike was stolen last year, it was out in the open in a locked basement....so we had new locks installed. so whoever broke in this time had access to the new key. kinda makes you wonder. julie started locking hers into our storage unit after sn's bike was taken. well, they got in again and this time they cut the fence wire around the lock and opened the door. they then put it "back together" to make it look like nothing was wrong. the last time we were in there was a week and a half ago. so i don't know how long ago it was taken. this just plain sucks!!!

of course i come into work today all pissed off.....then i find out that my yearly review is today. amazingly enough i was able to put the bike issue aside and have my review. things were fine with it. no big surprises. it was funny.....some of the things that he told me i needed to work on, i agree with. in the past i would usually try to make excuses about why i haven't been doing certain things.....trying to not take the fault on myself. but today i didn't do that. there were some things that i didn't agree with and i told him why....but most of it was right on the money. and i told him that. it felt so good to walk away from a review feeling satisfied with it. he wants me to be more proactive and agressive when i question things. he's right. i do need to do that. i did tell him that this was an area that i have a hard time with but that i have been working really hard at it. i'm always worried that people will think i am dumb if i give a wrong answer or if i don't know an answer so i used to "fake" like i knew something and then look it up when i got back to my desk. well a year of therapy later and i can now tell people that i don't understand what is happening and i feel good about it. what a huge weight was lifted off of me when i stopped worrying about what other people thought. don't get me wrong....it is a struggle every day but at least i am conscience of it now when it happens. i accept that i fell back into my old pattern and move on. so i told my boss all about this and he said that he would help me any way he could but that he would now be more aware of why i don't question things and answer things sometimes and not other time. i'm glad i told him about this. i actually feel like i will be more comfortable speaking up now that i know he understands that it is difficult for me to do. wow i feel so much better now. yeah!!!

Have a great Memorial weekend!!!!