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that is how i feel right now. i really need a hug. i wonder if i am still recovering from saturday's outing for julie's birthday or if i am depressed with myself for not running today when i said i was going to or some other miscellanious reason that my body knows about and my conscience mind does not. either way....this sucks. i need some time for myself again and i don't have time to take it. my allergies are bothering me, i feel run down, my stomach is bothering me...in the past when these things start happening it is because i am holding my feelings in and not releasing them.

finding a date is a pain in the ass. especially someone i want to date. i have kind of stopped trying to find someone to date. sometimes it would just be easier to have someone else pick out who i can date. basically the only reason being single is bothering me right now is that i miss having that one person to tell things to and come home to just get a hug when i need one. i feel like i am rambling but this is where my thought are going right now. enough self-pity for now.